It’s happened a few times now…. There is this moment where I have to ask what day it is. And without fail, I am astonished to how fast the time has gone. Today’s Thursday when I thought it was, well actually, I didn’t think anything at all. The 21st of August?!?!?! How is that possible. How has the last three months of my life gone by so fast? Well, let me tell you. It’s because I have been hanging out with some of the most amazing, fun, free-spirits you could ask for. I have gone to some beautiful places. Just this week I clocked over 800 miles towards the life of the one and only beautiful 2002 Ford Taurus. I’ve hiked three 14ers: Quandary, Grays, and Torreys. I spent some time in the Poudre Canyon cliff jumping into the Seaman Reservoir. Enjoyed great company in Fort Collins checking out some live music. Working… Once and a while. Usually on very little sleep and with the desire to leave the second I get there. I was introduced to the lovely Sanita’s Trail and the Red Rocks Loop which allowed me some practice time bouldering to the top. I drove to the tip of Flagstaff Road to finger paint while the sun was setting. I tanned my bod at the pool, enjoyed hours of yoga, and managed to some how relax and watch a few great movies. And throughout this I have been blessed with life changing experiences that I will never forget. The two that stuck out the most:
1. Regardless of when you go to bed, 4:00 a.m. comes quick. I woke up, brushed the sleep out of my eyes and jumped into Hannah’s whip. We met up with the clan in Golden and made our way to Grays & Torreys. Since my first attempt at Evans only a month ago I have become obsessed with climbing mountains. Every journey to the top is a religious experience. On the way up all you can think about is how much it sucks. You can’t breathe, your legs start to get tired, all you want is a f***ing snack (or five). Where is the damn Cliff Bar? And then, before you know it, you’ve made it. You’ve peaked in over 14,000 feet. Through the gain may have only been 3000 feet, you’ve only walked a distance of a few miles. The mental battle, that’s what I go for. I spend the whole time lost in my own head. And then you realize, the pain is temporary. Whatever pain that may be. The physical exhaustion, or the mental struggle. But you finally made it. At that point, none of the pain ever mattered in the first place. You got to the top and finally you pop some of the chocolate covered almonds and life seems to make a whole lot more sense. Up on top you feel this sense of accomplishment and once your pride and ego have been boosted, you level out. You look out at the layers of mountains. Everything goes silent regardless of the people around you. At this point, I realize my teeny tiny place in this gigantic universe. And that is where I feel truly humbled. You know, hiking the distance isn’t for everyone. But it is definitely for me. The connection I have with myself and all other energy out there is exemplified when I’m on top. The wind blows peace and clarity through every vain of my five foot three frame. Being outside, engulfed in the beauty, makes me want to be a better person. It is the inspiration that pushes me to talk to strangers, to hold the door, to look at every situation with a positive perspective. Well that’s cool and all….. But now is for the one memory I will never forget……
After our first peak (Torrey’s) we decided to hike on over to Gray’s. Only a short distance, but after sitting around it definitely is hard to get the motivation to do it again… So we found our pace and made our way to the top. The cookie finally hit me and I was feeling a little more in tune with my natural self, less conscious of what others would think, and I decided to lay horizontal. THIS moment was the point where my dreams and my reality met. Clouds, the sky, and all the unknown strike me with so much curiosity. And when you’re looking at it all upside down, with a different perspective, it doesn’t feel real. I was REALLY on a mountain, and these clouds were REALLY right there. Right in front of me. Almost close enough where I could feel them, reach out and touch them. But how could something so beautiful, physically & spiritually, be so close. This is what people search their whole lives for, is that peace with what you want and what you have, and it was sitting right there. Right in front of me. How simple. How simple and beautiful life can be…….
2. Story number two…..
So I am all about inspiring people. Making them feel good. Trying to make others feel this passion for life that I am so grateful to have… And this week my ongoing life goal has been met. So my buddy Hannah is a beautiful soul who introduced me to some beautiful girls. Iowans, is that how you would say it? Anyways, these three girls came to Colorado to enjoy what everyone comes to Colorado for. Well the first day we all went cliff jumping, which was awesome. But yesterday is what really made my heart go. We left Boulder in the a.m. with our final destination being Estes Park to check out Rocky Mountain. Naturally, we took the scenic byway while jamming out to some amazing music. After a bit of time “oooo-ing” “ahh-ing” the happy tears came.
So a little personal tid-bit…. I’m not a crier. You know, I don’t cry when I’m sad. Because for some reason I have this feeling of pride, regardless of whose around or if I’m by myself…. I just don’t like to cry. I don’t like to waste time on “pain” and “suffering” cause lets face it… It’s temporary. And not worth a second of happiness. Well, that is if it’s over something sad. BUT since moving to Colorado I have cried ALOT. And when I say ALOT, I mean A L O T. I’ll go camping and leave the group to sit on the cliff edge to cry at the beauty. When I went to Horsetooth and came around the bend I started balling my eyes out. These damn tears come close to every other day. You know, I’m just so happy. SO extremely content with life and where I’m at. Where I’m going. What I choose to spend my time doing. It’s beautiful. Every thing is just so beautiful. So I cry…..
But anyways. We were driving and in my rear-view I see tears rollin’ down their cheeks… And that was when my life goal was met. To be able to give that experience to someone else is truly amazing. One memory that I will never forget and will always cherish. So thank you girls, for crying. Cause you made my life worth livin’.
SO enough of all the yadayayada, here are some pictures to give you a little more visual of what I’ve been up to.
P.S. A big thank you to all the strangers that have become friends in the last few months, a thank you to roommates who have become family, and a thank you to the love and energy the universe has given me. I am truly blessed. HAPPY LIVING MY FRIENDS, HAPPY LIVING.